I was nearly in your back yard while at the hospital...Forsythe in Winston-Salem. Will call you the next time I need a ride back home. LOL
As for the smoking, guys since I've been home I have not had one yet.
I've tried before with throwing them all out and the cravings were horrible...it's like having a truck broken down in the driveway. It makes you crazy to know you CAN'T go anywhere if you wanted to...but if the truck was running fine, and you CHOSE to stay home, that's easier to take. So...with that thought in mind.....
I have two full packs unopened sitting here on the desk and one pack that is half full/half empty from before last Friday with the lighter sitting on top of the pack just as I left it. It seems to be easier to glance over the packs as I'm reaching for other things on the desk and know they are there 'just in case' and yet NOT reach for them, then it was to have NO choice because I had thrown them all away before.
Not making any promises to anybody, including myself...just taking it hour by hour for now with leaving them untouched. This will have to be good enough for the do-gooders who preach; smokers who have quit are nearly as bad as born again Christians, people. We get lectured enough by our doctors and by the little voice in our heads already. The biggest problem for most of us trying to quit is that WE LIKE SMOKING, and we have to say goodbye to something that even if it's bad for us, we find great pleasure in. You can't seem to understand that that's the biggest battle of most for us. If you knew for a fact that having sex would kill you, how many of you would go down kicking and screaming trying to give it up? (don't turn that question into a whole nuther subject, please)
TONI