Or in other words,I'll let you down lightly. You are no different than 90% of kids your age. Matter of fact, than 80% of kids more than ten years your senior. Kids which includes 15-36 have no direction but to let mom and dad continue to support them. Being or growing up poor is no excuse. Poor people always seem content because they're not working for what they have. It's given to them in the form of section 8 housing, WIC, foodstamps, welfare, medicaid and all the other social services our country provides by means of others working hard to afford the same nesseccities in life. In order to get somewhere, you first need a command of the english laguage, written and orally.
Second you need to stop making excuses of why you can't do something. If you manage to get yourself around, you can help move and setup displays as you described. As a volunteer, they should and will be happy to have any help you may offer. Counting on you putting in 100% and you not acting as though you've done all you can. That's called laziness. A person in your position would be a good candidate for the military. They will teach you dissapline, motivation and ad direction to your life.
If you paid attention when in school, this country went through a time that was called the great depression. Through that is where some pulled themselves up by their boot straps and did what it took to create a life for them and a future for their families. Then there were those that sat back and now blame everything on their past and why they're where they are now. They got on the government dole and that's where they stayed. Not just them but now it's their great grandchildren on it.
Stop with the excuses and step up to adulthood and manhood, make your parents proud and become a productive citizen of the country you're lucky to be part of.
the blissful yet happy age of childhood; i had many friends, we chased one another under the burning sunlight in the poorest slums of the city, life was always a challenge yet ppl were satisfied with what they have and treat one another like family, and i got alot of positive inspiration and motivation to do everything i can to ensure my childhood won't be wasted, and lived it to the fullest i did, those years i'll forever remember as the best time in life where i lived it to the fullest.
when my parents started moving between countries i followed them like a rotting walking corpse, i lost my passion for everything that is in life, i stopped caring about making friends because "i'll be leaving soon anyways" eventually i grew distant from society, and lead myself to a horrible and lonely exsistance that lasted for 7 years, where the only thing i thought about was when my parents will leave with me again or how long are we going to stay in this country this time....etc, my exsistance was nothing more than waiting for the next place to come and the next time we moved, the term "home" is now somewhat of a myth to me as i've never lived anywhere for a longer duration of 3 months for the past 7 years; moving around that much nurtured me into a lonely being where it wouldn't matter weather i accomplished anything or not, becuase even if i try all it takes is one airplane trip to erase it all away. i've spent so much time with nobody but myself that i eventually lost all knowledge in socialization hence i've never had someone i could talk to for quite a while, no matter which country's school i go to i'd always sat staring at the sky wondering when i'll be leaving again, so there was no point in participating in anything, as i thought there wouldn't be a point.
and so the best years of my life passes by, i'm now 21 years old, and these 7 years i've wasted, sitting in my home or wondering aimlessly in the streets loathing everything that is in life, hating everything in my life that is imperfect. never once did i attempted to do something with my life to turn it around, all i did was vent my anger towards everything that is infront of me while telling myself "no point i'll be leaving soon anyways." at this point something happened and i did alot of growing up the hard way, and i realized finally what old wise man meant when he said "if you don't do anything when you're still young you're going to regret it!" back then i shrugged these frequent comments off without a thought, but now when i think about what i really have done for these past years i felt a surge of guilt bolting upwards to my head knocking me into tears day after day, night after nigh and i'd wake up in the middle of the night sobbing about my pathetic exsistance and wishing i could just die and be free this instant; i really have done nothing with my life and as a result, my life is nothing. everything was wasted and can never come back.
i don't want to die with this knowledge in mind.
so now, i want to do something, and so i ran towards a community center and looked for volunteer work, surprisingly there were only a few jobs available for the non-social worker individual and they're the heavy equipment setup for the charity concert and the "big bro for kids" thing. the problem is that i'm a skinny klutz who trips and falls and stumbles tn a feather on the ground, i don't know if i can lift anything at all and the last thing i want is to be a bother to the folks, as for the big bro thing; i can't imagine tasked with such a huge responsibility when i couldn't even take care of myself properly. with volunteer out of the question due to my inability to do anything i decided to atleast find something to DO insted of sitting in front of my pc, but with my broken/crippled socialization skills (eg: i couldn't talk to a childhood who genuinely cared about me, i couldn't even properly talked to a very nice guy in college who was very friendly to me without my mind going blank at the critical moment) and it didn't help when all i see are "youth summer camp" stuff at the ymca center which i'm clearly too old to participate, or another "be a big bro, help a kid" thing which i'm too incompetent to do, heck i can't even drive! i just want to do something constructive, maybe even repair that crippled social skills of mine, but it doesn't matter, i just want to do SOMETHING!
so i need to do something, i want to do something with my life...what should i do? T_T
thak you very much!